I’m at the point now where I’m fine with you, and I’m fine with the fact that you’re not here anymore. I don’t really get upset when people talk about you, and I don’t really get choked when I talk about you. It feels really good to finally be over this terrible cloud that’s been hanging over my head, but there’s still a tiny sliver of me that’s holding on.

It’s more tolerable now, and I can go on living properly, holding this tiny sliver in my head. I don’t know if it’ll go away, and frankly, it doesn’t matter if it does or doesn’t. All I know is that I’m fine with everything now, and I’m alright. Sure sometimes you think of what could’ve been, and you think of the things you did wrong, but at this point, I really don’t see the point. It’s so far in the past now, so why should I drill on it?

I may get reminiscent once in awhile, but I know in confidence I can do so with a smile. I hope you do as well, even when you’re off and gone with other people. Just know that you made me smile, and I hope you’ll remember me as someone who did that for you as well.

I faced my fear, and I went and just did it. And you know what? 

I feel amazing. I feel so enlightened, so free, and high above the air. I feel like all the stress I’ve been building up for years has finally been released, and let out of my system [of course, leaving room for another stress that will most definitely make its way to manifest in my mind]. Who cares if happiness is trifling, and temporary, because right now, I am the free-est and proudest person in the world, and I love it.

Good morning! Haven’t done one of these in awhile. It’s not raining so I have to do the run today. -.- UGHHHHH. Anyways, I hope you all have a great day. :]

-Alyshia

I need to sleep. Been getting lots of rest by not using the computer. Haven’t fallen asleep in class yet, this semester, and I don’t need to change that. There, my burst of posts for the day.

You all rest up well now, and despite my critical attitude towards Valentine’s Day, I actually do have a Valentine. Haha just kidding.

Hope you guys have a great day tomorrow. :]

Goodnight!

-Alyshia 

This is the one I’m really worried about. Didn’t do so well on my reviews and practice exams so.. x.x but I’ll do my best. After tomorrow’s provincial, it’s study study for Socials and Science on Thursday!

Wish me luck, and sleep well.

-Alyshia

It’s Harry Potter Day, Peppero Day, Veteran’s Day, and 11/11/11!

I’m going out to buy snacks, and Harry Potter 7.2, buy tons of snacks, some Asian drinks, and I’m good to go!

Have a Good Day!